Not a really in depth post today. My room is a disaster right now and I really should get started cleaning it.
Cleaning is always a big project for me though, at least when it comes to my room. I like looking through everything and all of my old things. So it always takes me FOREVER.
I've been feeling a tad better these past couple of days and am almost back to my bubbly, perky self. I think my hormones definitely were to blame this week for my craziness.
I started buying things for my new apartment today which made me happy. It's like I'm getting ready for another chapter in my life. It makes me smile.
I know people don't want to see me complaining about my weight, but I got on the scale this morning, only to see it go up 1.6 pounds. That didn't make me happy at all. So what did I do? I had a bologna sandwich for breakfast and a bowl of mac and cheese for lunch. Healthy, no? I haven't bought groceries for about three weeks now and am living off of my room mates' food. It's cheaper, but I'm totally paying for it. I think after I get some of my room done I'm going to go out running before work. That will probably make me feel a little better.
I some how have it stuck in my head that if I lose the weight, he'll come into my life more. I know I'm wrong, but hey, there's nothing wrong with a little motivation right? No matter how wrong it may be. Funny thing is, I know it's wrong, but I still keep thinking that.
On a side note:
If you really are reading my blog, I would like feedback on the things I write, however, and I really stress this...do not criticize my grammar or hound me for the way I'm feeling. I made this so I could be honest with myself, but still allow others to see it. I still worry that people are going to get the wrong idea about me when they read this, but then I remember, you don't even know my real name, my age (which will probably seem evident over time), or where I live (apparently a place that speaks English). So in truth, I really shouldn't be that worried what people that I don't even know think. This is kind of my way of ridding myself of that fear.
Hope everyone else has a nice day!